It’s scary, to be honest Dylan, I didn’t know what to do with myself. For the longest time I spent my nights crying sometimes in the cold rainy nights of guard duty. Dealing with my family crisis by myself as I coped through the situation with a mixture of dark humor self-deprecation.

The worst part was during the early and middle stages of the process, when she had taken a very negative stance against me. I can honestly say that going through deployment with barely any communications with her or my kid was the worst.

I could literally write another story about everything she did against me during that time, but I’m not sure that would be appropriate or even something people would want to hear after reading this. Especially, if you consider that while I’m not angry or resentful, I haven’t forgotten the pain of the actual attacks she took against my person.